Religion and why it sucks.

Just listen to Bill Maher again when he talked about how Atheism is not a religion and suddenly want to write something. You see, "religion" used to be just a word to represent a belief into un-natural, super human being. But since the time drifted and more and more people putting their faith into many others like money, liberals or the anti religion itself, I think the word religion needs to be expanded.

Do I hate religion? Yes. And my definition for it is much much broader than just Hindu, Muslim or what ever the hell it is that people talk about including atheism. You see, to me religion is a strong believe into a philosophy that you block out everything else that go against your faith. And that's the part I hate.

Everybody knows me, knows that I love to talk shit about Christianity, but few of them know I talk shit about Buddhisms, and even atheism too. Why? Because they are all bullshit. Do practice Buddhism, yes, but I practice its philosophy, the way to live, not its ritual and superstitious part.

One time I had a walk with a great friend, and suddenly I felt so good when I could finally found someone that had given a lot of thought about religion like me. (That's a great friend u should have, right?)

So we go back to the religion that I mostly talk shit about, Christianity. Why do I hate it? Is it philosophy that bad? No. The philosophy, or may I call it the teaching, of Christianity is good, VERY GOOD. But the way that people practice it, understand it make shit out of it just defile the whole system. When they talk about Jesus healed a blind guy, they did not really mean that he had physically made the guy see again, they meant that he had helped the man to know how to live a better life just like all of us. Yes. We are all blind in our own way for all of our greed, lust, glutton... and so on. So when Jesus came and en-lighted us with the whole "love your enemies", and not an eye for an eye, we were en-lighted, we saw things better than just ourselves. HELL YEAH, that was how he opened our eyes.

However, a lot of shitty people who dress nicely to go to church and spend hours to listen to some one who does not know that much better than them have totally understand the whole concept in a very different stupidity way. They craw their asses into the church and listen to the preach with the great hope that they will go to heaven and live a happy life after death as if they are not living happy now. Then if u are good enough, why don't you kill yourself. Well, I know that they prohibit suicide, but if you are believe in your life are being judge by someone who will let you know the result at the very end, isn't it just a fucking lottery? You see, after a while, a believe system, a teaching suddenly became a religion. People do not understand the meaning behind the teaching anymore. They do not see, or read the things between the line and just take the context as it is. That's including Buddhism. Modern Buddhists, may I say, go to the temple, crawling on the floor with great ritual and superstition with the hope that their lives will be better, or at least as good as it is right now. They sit their asses in the temple and reading the koan which they have no idea wat the fuck it is talking about. They spend so much time and give so much money for the money who is not really that great of a guy, and who does know the whole philosophy that well with the wish that they have done something bad and save the karma for themselves, or for their kids.

NO. Ladies and gentlemen, I am telling u this. Buddha, Jesus, or even Mohamed are not talking about your next life, or your after life. They are talking about your present, existing, going on fucking retarded tiresome of kids and shitty spouse life. That's right, it's right now. All of their teaching is, and of course, always about this life you are living. They might had promised about the after life, but nobody can really confirm that. Or may be they were just using it as a bait to help you live better. Remember a great story of Dhamar when he went to China to preach about Buddhism. A monk came up to him and asked.

- Great Dhamar, what can you tell us about the after life.
- I do not know. The Dhamar said.
- You are wise and great. How come? The monk asked
The Dhamar answered:"Because I am still living."

Today, people love to lie to themselves that they are living this life so that they can get a better life next or after they are death, and u know what, that fucking pissed me off. Why can we just worry about the life we are living right now. Enjoy it. Love it. Live it to the fullest and leave the whole shitty non-sense after life for the after life. Suddenly remember a quote from the Hours:"To look life in the face, to really know it for what it is, and to love it, for what it is. And then to put it away."

And so when people only see the ritual, the superstition and the non-sense while forgetting about the philosophy about the teaching, it becomes a religion. Your believe is being taken from moderation into an extreme. And with that, your ego which need to be tamed and shrink-ed by the teaching, suddenly exploded. We go against whoever not believe the same bull shit as us. And then come the jealousy, the hating our enemies, the SINS. And we suddenly throw all the teaching behind and suddenly forget about everything. We return to where we started.

And atheism is not an exception. It raised from the anger of people with all the non-sense of other religion and suddenly the believe, the teaching about do not believe in the after life, or the ritual became the non-believe in whatever the others said and talked about. They create around themselves a bubble that everything in this world can be explained scientifically, just we the human are not there yet. NO. FUCK NO. There are certain things in life, just cant be explained no matter how high tech you are just like the sense of music, the coincidence, and the chances that someone had in life. I am no superstitious, but I believe there is a force out there "un-natural" and way more super than us influence our lives. There are events that just happen and you just can tell me clearly what it is. Well. Does it really matter that we have to be able to explain it completely? Not really. Shit happened? It happened. Some things you can explain, some u just cant. So why the bother? Can we just all ignore it and go on with our lives? Why should we try to convince ourselves that whether it is God, or it can be studied and explained?

My friends, this world is created by the oppositions electrons and protons, the ying and the yang, good and bad, so as long as you create something up, there will be an opposite. Just like the Tao said, there was beauty because there was ugliness. So if we do not consider one, the opposite will disappear. SEE? We should all just see things the way it is, and work with it whether it is religion or atheism.

Trust me, if everybody in this fucking world can really understand and follow the meaning of the teaching more than just the method and figure out their own ways by the own mind their own methods, the whole world will be at peace. Just like the Buddah said after he asked all his monks when he was dying if they have any questions and doubts about his teaching:"All the component things in the world are changeable. They are not lasting. Work hard to gain your own salvation." Yeah, u r fucking right. The Englighted one actually telling his disciples that his teaching may not be always correct, and they just had to work on THEIR OWN for a way to live a present existing happy life.

Lesson of life from a psychopath. (Just a random thought)

"I am a dog chasing cars. I wouldn’t know what to do with one if I caught it. You know, I just… do things The mob has plans, the cops have plans, Gordon’s got plans. You know, they’re schemers. Schemers trying to control their little worlds. I’m not a schemer. I try to show the schemers how pathetic their attempts to control things really are."

Sometimes you can find a lesson of life from a psychopath. Why?

Well, we often look at psychopaths as crazy people, but when did we ever try to stop and ask ourselves, why are they so crazy? Suddenly remember about a character from a book who is wise and strong, but after his wife got raped, his newborn son got kill and his entire family was massacred, he just went crazy. That's not a true story but it should remind us, sometimes psychopaths are people who know life better than us because they experience the tragic of life. Often there's a saying, "what can not kill you makes you stronger." That's quite true isnt it?

So here we are, living our lives just like a dog chasing cars. We try to get a big job, big salary, with trophy partner, fancy house, high class car, expensive suits, yet never know what we going to do after we have those. And so we have plans for how to get a job, how to flirt the girls, how to finance our houses and blah blah blah blah blah. I don't believe that there is a God somewhere decided what we have and will have. I don't believe that our lives are already written in some kind of destiny book. I believe that if we can just live our life the way we want, we'll be happy.

Yeah, we all try to control our little world to fit it into our need yet never stop to consider how pathetic that action was. Why is it pathetic? Because there are things we can not control, you can not achieve no matter how much effort you put into. Yeah, we try to control our world so that it fits what we need, but never ask the question what do we really need.  Suddenly remember a song. 

"This is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And you take that love you made
Stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Bumping someone else's blood
...You hope you dont get hurt
Even if it does, you just do it all again."

As a "schemers" we the people spend too much time to think and make plans trying to control our life the way we want it with the thought that that's the life we want and so unconsciously lied to ourselves that's what we really need.

You know what? If you think too much, you might over think your problems and ruin everything. It is ok to fail. It is ok to make mistakes. It is ok to give up. There are certain things in life you just can't get. There are certain things in life you just can't control. So why do we have to control it? Why can we just live our everyday lives as if it is the last day, because, hey trust me, it could be the last day. Let live our life to the fullest and never look back. Why? Cause you can not change the past, but remember, you can make up for it. Suddenly remember a poem.

"Người ra đi đầu không ngoảnh lại,
Sau lưng thềm nắng lá vơi đầy."

"You are gone without looking back
The fallen leaves have covered the stair behind"

A friend asked me (we were talking about why I do not want a girlfriend):"What happens when you get old, like 40 50?"

Dont know what to answer, cause I never know what I will be at 40 50, and in my mind I never think that I have to have a girl or even a guy with me to feel fully alive. I don't try to cope into a "normal" life. I don't try to stand in the "normal" people line. I just want to live my life to the fullest and if I cant have what I want, I cant have what I want. No big deal.

So come on guys, let just do things shall we?

How to be better in Starcraft 2 according to the "Eightfold Path"

How to be better in Starcraft 2 according to the “Eightfold Path.”

Starcraft 2 is a real time strategy from Blizzard. It is very good. And if you don’t know it, please go on “Youtube” and watch Husky of Day9 since I am cramming this blog before my raid.

Now if you do not know about the “Eightfold Path”, please go to Border of BnB to grab a book about basic Buddhism and read it cause I would not explain it in here.

I will give you 5 seconds to go grab and read those books… 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. Ok, if u did not read them then don’t blame me if u don’t now what I am talking about, it’s your fault. And you should all be shut up and just listen to me. However if u still don’t like my attitude and don’t want to shut up, GET THE F*$&% OUT. YEAH, I DON’T GIVE A S*&#$ ABOUT WHAT U WANT, GET OUT…..

Now let’s have some peace in mind…

If you are still a very bad Starcraft 2 player regardless you have played thousands of games, you might need to go back and look at your games to figure out what you have done wrong, instead of just keep going on another game. That’s bad.

Ppl like u who have master the builds, acquire a great skill of micro, but still you loose to other gamers who may be lower rank than yours, should really consider the reason chances have passed you by. Yes, I said chances, because in a game, even a RTS, everything is still designed by chance. So if u r a very bad luck player who can never have enough luck to win the game, I cant help u. But if u want to increase your luck and win a game, this blog can help u.

I have always know what we need to become a great Starcraft 2 player. But I did not know it was all engulfed inside the “Eightfold Path” of the Buddha. And so now, I will compare what the Buddha said in a very expanded way, a Starcraft 2 way.

Now lets talk about the very first thing in the Eightfold Path. The Right View. According to Buddha, it’s the beginning and the end of the path. As he said, right view is not designed by your intellectual just like wisdom is not decided by your intelligence. It’s a tool, a guide line for you to follow other paths to a greater good. Yes I wish I could have time to explain more, to compare the idea of Right View to Scouting in Starcraft 2 words by words and show you how close they are, but I don’t. So I will just briefly talk about it, just like others.

Yes, you have to scout. There is no “One build will rule them all” in Starcraft 2 even if u possess the Godlike micro ability of Moon, Ace, Sjow or Fruitdealer. A lot of people think scouting is a waste of time since I can always put pressure on my enemy and get victory. No you cant. At least in high level games. You have to scout a lot in order to know what your opponent is planning, therefore you can counter that build and get victory. Just like the right view, Scouting will not give you victory, but it will increase your chance of getting victory. Like Sun Tzu said, if you know the enemy and you know you, you will win with least loss.

Now since you have a good View in life, or a good Scouting in game, u might want to have a Right Intention. If right intention is described by your commitment to ethical and mental self improvement in life, it is best described as the build and the way you want to use the build u r going to follow.

Sure you will know you enemy is going for something powerful, but it would be useless of the knowledge if you can not have the good intention to counter that build. This could be build up by experience. If you know your enemy is going for zergling banneling u might want to counter it by sentry stalker and colossus. Getting to the wrong intention will always, I say always, waste all your scouting and give you an assurance failure.

And now since we know what our enemy is going for, and we have the plan to counter it, we might need a right speech to get us further in the game. This may be the only path that might be opposite to what the Buddha said. The Buddha defined that words can break or save lives, make enemies or friends, start war and create peace. That’s mean u have to use the right speech to avoid all the bad things come to you or other people. What I really want to say in a game is that you might want to say the right speech to your enemy so that they know they should always follow the path they are going for.

May be I am being so philosophical, or sarcastic, but the way to contain your chance in high to win the game is not to let your opponent know that his build is being countered. That’s mean u have to give a false safe feeling, a wrong speech. Yes, it is a right speech that u should give, but it’s not true. It’s contrast. The right thing u give someone is the wrong thing they need.

One of a very important thing I think that even the high level player still lack, is the right action. Yes u scouted, and went with the right build to counter what your opponent had, but that did not mean he would not change. Sometimes in a long time, you both have to show your “ace in the hole”. It might be good, it might be just as good. And when it’s just as good, you have to have the right action. Unwholesome actions lead to unsound states of mind, while wholesome actions lead to sound states of mind. Yes. You have to decide yourself which action u would take if your ace is not as good as it should be. Would u still follow that path, or would u switch it to something u think might work.

Now during the game you might want to secure more chances to win, and for the game like Starcraft, money will take a strong lead. That’s why you need the Right Livelihood. As the Buddha said, without effort nothing can be achieved. I want to take that to the extend of how to grab your extension. Yes a sneaky expo might get u save and give illusion to your opponent, but it is very risky, especially if your enemy is quite skillful. You want to grab an expo that you can protect and surround it with great protection. A sneaky far way expo might be destroyed easily as your opponent move out and give you such a great deal of unnecessary loss.

Just like in every aspect of life, you will encounter a great deal of resistant and pressure from your opponent. Well, in that case, Right Effort will be such a great help. Misguided effort can misguide you to the very wrong path. If you watched Star Wars, you would know that because of Anakin Skywalker misguide effort to save his wife, he lost into the Dark Side and became Dark Vader. In a game of Starcraft 2, if you can not put enough effort in defending your expo, waiting for the right timing, keep a clear mind of what you want to build to counter your enemy moves, defending yourself from early expo, preventing yourself from falling into your enemy hit and run tactic and checking your position in every step you move, you will not have a chance to win a game.

May be I should have merge the last two with the 6^th one because together they create a very great idea of becoming a good player. Right Mindfulness is the ability to see thing with clear consciousness while Right Concentration is the development of a mental force that occurs in natural consciousness. Yes with a right effort to keep your mind clear so that it can see through all deception and give you the concentration on wholesome thoughts and actions, you will have peace and loose all your suffering. In game, that means if you can endure through the pressure and have the great mind to see when it will be your chance to push, or to expand, or even to back door attack, you will own the game.

I quite bit regret that I could not spend more time to explain all of those above, but I think with your great mind as a gamer, you would see all of this and be better. And I hope you also will be as amazed as me knowing that what the Buddha teaches not only can make you a better man, but also a very good Starcraft 2 player.

My love note for Valentine

It has been a very long time since I wrote something and post on my blog. There were so much stuffs for me to take care in real life. Even though I always have many concerns about life and society, I was so beat up by shit in life to actually sit down and write something serious… or not. However, today is a very special day.

It’s Valentine. And especially for someone who does not have any kind of opposite sex relationship at all, it’s more important. Sure you will jump out of your sit and say sth like “WTF”, or “U r gay”, but let me explain this really quick so that my intro wont be so long. For ppl like us, not gay but single just a clarification about my sexuality, today is the day about love. It’s not just lovers should enjoy Valentine, it’s everybody. To me, Valentine is the day for love. It could be the love for your parents, your friends, your teachers or some hot neighbor that u always stalk. You know, life is kinda important, and life without love is not a life. Therefore, I decided to write about the thing that I have no love at all. Welcome to my rant about a fruit company, APPLE.

Let say u r one of the few people who I chose to be my friends, and one for the few of those friends I chose to tell that I hate Apple, I told pretty much everybody including my co-workers who are not my friends, know that I hate Apple so much. Seriously I love apple, I enjoy apple juice and sometimes craving for apple pie. But u know what, if that Apple has a pussy, I would fuck it so hard, and may I phrase Bill Maher, pull its hair and slap it in the face for making noise.

So over the normal part. U now all know that I hate Apple. But not a lot of u know the real reason that blood sucking company makes me hate it to the core. Today, I will reveal that secret for all I love.

I have never ever used a Mac, and not until 2008 or 2009 I had my hands on an Ipod Nano. But Apple credit was really bad to me since the days I heard story about its weird set up for the Ipod. You could not simply just copy an MP3 files to your Ipod. U have to use a painful program call Itune to do that. And u know what, if u plug your Ipod to another computer, u loose all your songs. The stupid program deletes all your files and sync the music on that computer to your Ipod. Those stories filled me with rage and my oath for never ever use Apple product was born. My hate for Apple increased when I saw Apple commercial when it made fun of PC and telling that its MAC is way superior than PC. In my mind, the question was always :”Is it really?”

So I came for an adventure of finding the truth. Pretty much all ppl who praised for MAC, or MAC book, or whatever shit MAC thing s I met could never tell me really clearly that why they prefer MAC than PC. Some kinda told me that it very easy to access programs on a MAC than PC, and it has better graphic. And u know what I told myself about those answers? “U guys can all go fuck yourself.” Sorry guys, I know some of my good friends are MAC lovers, Apple fans but I hate those answers. Sure it can show u all the programs and shit on the screen when you do not have much program written for that forsaken operating system. Ask the guy at my work if he really wants all his files and documents appear on his desktop of not? Come on guys, if u have to use Office, which MAC has an own version because their office suck badly, Photoshop, Adobe premier, adobe audio, Starcraft, Warcraft, Heroes of Might and Magic, Counter Strikes, Safari, Yahoo Messenger, Itune, Guitar Player, Song writers…. “u suck Apple” programs, do u really thing that it is better to have them all your desktop instead of have them in just a program folder? About the beauty interface or graphic. I cant justify that because I do not use MAC.

But u know what, I am a very tolerant man. I can forgive Apple for its stupidity about the Ipod, which fortunately they fixed it (I found out when I bough my Ipod nano and my rage for Apple was kinda reduced), or for those nonsense answers. It’s not a big deal. But come on. U should not rant about it on TV especially directly talk down on your competitors. I don’t like that. And so I went on with certain ppl knew a little bit about Apple products and found out the shitty about their machines. And from what I know about Apple products, pretty much they are trying to enslave u. Yes, enslave. Every single Apple’s product will have three of the following characteristic. It is a very closed system. It is very hard to modify unless u have tools from Apple. And the last but also the worst is that you pretty much have to do everything under Apple’s rules book. Why?

Imagine u go to rent a room. The price was high but u got pretty much all the furniture and shirts also tooth paste and soap. Pretty much everything was included. Now u r excited cause the room is nice and u do not have to worry about your own room. But then u found out in order to but another lamb into your room, you have to ask the owner or pay him a bit. U r not allowed adding any new furniture to your room. U have to buy the right toothpaste and soap that the owner agree that it is ok to use them. And u r very limited to decorating your room cause it might not be appropriate under the owner point of view. So, tell me, really? U have to pay to get all of that shit? If u don’t like that, then why do u like Apple?

Correct me if I am wrong, but have u ever think about modify your own MAC. U want to install a new Sound Card, new Blue Ray player or even just a new graphic card so that your 1990 computer can somehow magically run Starcraft 2? I don’t think u can with MAC. Cause u know what? APPLE shit is superior. If u have the old superior, spend another 2000$ for another superior shit.

I have an Ipod Nano, and u know what? Despite the fact that I can now copy music from other computers to my nano, I cant share the music from my Nano to other ppl because Itune wont copy that. Ok. So do u know what did Itune do to the MP3, WAV, WMV files that u possess? Some of your stupid Apple fans will say:”They purify it and make it sound better.” U know what. SHUT THE FUCK UP. Sorry, but yes. Shut up if u r going to say sth like that. It does not make your music sounds better. I tested it myself and with others ppl who were actually musicians. What it does is that it transfer your files into a weird coding name file with extension ACC and put it into a hidden folder on your Nano which u have to turn on the show hidden folders option in your Window Folder Options in order to see it. And it does that with a reason that it can sort your music better. Bull Shit. Zune and other shit can now do that easily with pretty much the same results in a very simple way these days without converting your music file into something weird and hide them from u and hope u’ll never find it. Sorry Steve, if the idea was yours, I would really love to take my nano to your bed, slab it into your face really hard and suffocate u with it.

So done with my Nano. Now to another awesome product of Apple, the Iphone. A lot of ppl complain is about reception, but yes u can always blame it on those looser companies like AT&T or TMobile. But what I do not really like about the Iphone is that it is a very close system. U have to do everything over Itune and pay both Apple and the App developer for the apps. Google are following this but Apple started it and it works, therefore why should Google not. If ppl are stupid enough to pay for both company and developers are dumb enough to pay a share for their apps get on the stupid market then I have to rest my case. But u know what? At least Google does not say its Android was superior or the best OS out in the market. Vic Gundotra, vice president of Google Engeneering, said something that make I love him and Google so much, well it was really not his saying but yeah… u know, that if Android was not born the future we have will be the one where one man, one company, one device and one carrier is the only choice we have. Ok, so if Steve can say something humanly like that, I would not hate Apple. Instead he said sth like :”U know what. We don’t care about your fucking stupid complain about our reception. Other phones loose signal too. So if u r stupid enough to buy my device, shut your mouth and rest assure that everything is beautiful and OK. Cause u know, others make mistake so there is no reason for us not being a screwing up asshole denial our mistakes guy.” He did not really say that, but that is now I exaggerated his respond for the Iphone 4 antenna problems.

Well, but it’s a phone. Ppl love the phone. And we, Apple invented the touch screen phone. Even though I know they did not, I still thing Apple should get some credit for making it popular. But don’t stand on the cloud and make u look like god cause u r not. However, I have to admire Apple about its product because it produces the Ipad. To me, Ipad is a very evolutionary product. But however, it still has the above characteristics or may I summarize all of those in just one term “Apple Shit.” Yes it is a very cool looking device which u can surf web watch video, listen to music chat playing games or work on it. But it does not have Flash support which 70-80% internet websites have . Why? Because Apple does not like it. Secondly it does not have any jacks to input your data except the stupid Apple jack. So when we want to input sth lets say a document or a movie, u have to inject it into a computer and copy the files from the other device to the computer and then copy from the computer to the files. Well, if u r just a teenager bitch watching youtube or porn and Google something, then u r allowed to love it. But if u r like me who always carry a USB around because I might ended up listen to some music song which I can download to my PC at work, or bring something from work to do on my vacation, I might need another computer because my stupid Ipad does not have USB jack. Seriously, I don’t want to spend 600$ for a device that I have to play mostly under its rules. Yes my laptop sucks. It huge and ugly. It kinda slow sometimes cause I have tons of programs on it. But u know what, I can copy any data from my work to it, I can rip any movies I bough to it, I can share my music to my friends. I remember the quote from one of the shit head of Apple saying that the Ipad is a very free device which u can hold it any style u want. U don’t have to bend yourself to the device, it bends itself to u. well. It’s a lie. Because yes u can hold it any style u want, but in order to have something inside it for u to hold up to show off someone, U have to follow Apple play book.

As a free thinker and a person love freedom, I hate Apple. Simply because it is trying to enslave ppl. Make ppl play under its rules in it set up. Well if u r saying that Window or Microsoft doing the samething, I agree. But if Microsolf is a Communist country, Apple is a fucking Nazi. So as a guy from a Communist Country, I am kinda favor my type. Hey, at least they only punish u if u raise against them, they don’t bend u into their standards.

So as today is the day of Love, I hope all of u have lovers enjoy it the best u can. And everybody I love please, if u r an Apple fans, u still have my love because I don’t follow the shitty idea that friends of enemy is enemy. So for those I do not love and are Apple fans and have lovers, I hope u will have a wonderful evening with your lovers because I would trade pretty much everything to have that chance, but please be clear and stop being stupid for loving Apple. I hope u all well. If u r neither Apple fans or lovers, u have my blessing for having more love in your life regardless the source cause u know, love is a source of life. And as such a gentleman who cares about pretty much everybody, if u r an Apple fans but do not have a lovers, YOU GUYS CAN ALL GO FUCK YOURSELF because u r stupid and have no love.

The Yin and Yang inside each of us.

It has been a while since my last post about phylosophy. I have to sorry my fans who expect many weekly or daily phylosophical post from my blog, if I have any lol, because I am always busy with jobs, looking for a hot blonde girl friend and WOW. But today, Sunday, amazing hah, I decided to wake up bit early before 10 to write this blog; a seires of blog I started long time ago on 360. Phylosophy from science.

Last time I talked about the nature of life, the Yin and Yang which compose all of us, the twisted amazing nature of electron and proton which create everything on earth. Today I want to talk about the same subject, but in a differenet form from different subject, the DNA.

Everybody who has enough money to go to college, or highschool and has the courage to enter a very basic biology course will know about DNA. DNA has become so common to everyone due to it's nature which contains the inheritance traits of all species. The beauty of DNA is that it is made from the two nucleic acid strands which are completely opposite. Eventhough they are exactly the same but two DNA strands decided to attach to each other in the very opposite way, or in biological word complementary. The two strands attach to each other and twist around four histone proteins to make the denser structure call chromosome.

Ok, now u can yell, wtf do u want ass hole. This is not a bio 201 lecture isnt it? What I want to talk about here is that how we consider, regconize and analyze certain things in life. We can see that from our nature, we are composed of a very complementary objects, electrons and protons, 3'-5' and 5'-3'. Therefore if we have to look at everything in life consider if it was good or bad, we should consider the complemetary side of it. Right and wrong, according to many cultures, are quite vary. We, human, are all living in the gray zone between the two polar of black and white, of right and wrong. There is not such thing is completely right, or wrong. In time, certain events will turn from one side to another. In life, we tend to decide something not from the nature of the events, but base on our own knowlegde, experience which always try to pull us to one polar or another. Some events might be look very right on this situation but later they turn out to be very wrong vice versa. Why does it happen like that? It happens like that because of our nature. Our nature is complementary. We are nothing but two exact same copies combine in the opposite way, the yin and yang of life. We say something is right, or wrong mostly base on our cuture and experience. I read from an anthropology book that in two different cultures, burying a dead father, or burning him can be considered very disrespectful. Our definition of right and wrong can be seen very clearly in some cartoon which envolve animal. We put certain characteristic to the animal, such as the tigers are evil while the snakes are cunning, and blah blah blah.

From those culture knowlegde and experience we can be stopped and given out the wrong judgement. Who would dare to step up and save the women who were burnt in the witch hunt campaign. For more than hundreds year Christianity has gave people many wrong judgment than they can give them salvation. Even God looks at those action would say, fuck I did not say that. If we have to dissect an even to the core, we might find out that it neither right or wrong, black or white. And then now you can tell me, wat is the important of that? The important of this is that you can keep this in mind and tell yourself how to judge something. If you lean your judgement too much on certain things, your decision might not be so subjective. In order to dissect an event, we have to avoid prejudice.

I was once asked about my idea for fornication, and I supported it. In one hand fornication is bad, but in the other hand it is an nessecary thing to have. If marriage is the holy, why should we risk go to it without knowing if our love for our partners is more than just sex. When I look at the conflict between Irael and Palestine, I always tell to myself, may be Hitler was right, may be the Jew should be exterminated.

So my friend, if you have to make a deicision, please, consider this in mind, your persepective can be just one strand of the DNA, try to get a decision which is the whole perfect strand.

Pre-designed life

I just recieved an email from one of my friend who is a great Christian. She sent me a powerpoint file with the pictures and stories of how some people escape their tragic death on the 9/11 event. The show tells that every little thing in our life is designed by God and we should appreciate that. I have to disagree on that and want to show my view on how certain thing happen in our life in a perspective of Vietnamese philosophy.

So we back at the "God designed all" theory. If you say that becaue of God help those men with those little things, they have survived, my question is whe he/she did not help the rest of them. Moreover why he/she did not stop the terrorist to attack the planes. Why he/she did not make the bomb became mal-fucntion and did not work. Oh, you know why? Because if he does that there would be nothing for the world to look at and then for some people to say that, oh I am alive because of God. Then if it happens like that, then God is not hing but a selfish being need to be remembered, worship no more no less.
That could be enough about God since if I keep going, this blog will become an anti-christ one and people will give me comments like :"oh ye has little faith." So GG god see you later. What I want to take out from that idea is the believe in our pre-designed life. There are certain events in life that things just happen to happen and we can not explain why and how. Some call it luck, some says it faith. The question of how and why those events happen has been the great challenge of human kind. All over the world many people have tried to investigate and figure out how to predict those events. Yet the answers were found. According to my good friend David, serveral scientists have been trying to investigate to find out how to predict certain events. But it will might take them several life time to complete their works.
Now if you look back every cultures, you will se that people all over the world have been talking, discussing about that since the very dawn of their civilization. And as usual when they can not explain it they turn it into religion. People say that everything that happens in our life is belong to faith. That our lives have been pre-designed and arranged into a certain pattern, or path and we can not change it. The Roman showed their belives in this theory with Heroes and Gods and prophecy. They told that some people can tell your future but in a cryptic way and you can only regconize it when it happened. The Vietnameses and Chineses belive that your lives have been predesigned and written in the book which is kept by the king of underworld. In some stories in fact he, the king of underworld, showed some men their future and what exactly would happen.
So the question is now that what do you think about that? Do you think that your life has been redesigned and no matter what you do, you would not be able to change it? I would say no. Certainly there is something in life that when you look back and you say that oh I was lucky. But that is only little thing, may be it's not even luck. It's the accumulation of what you had done in the past which gives you the outcome of the present event. As the man of science and logic, I do not believe in pre-designed life. Our life is what we made. This might sound like the chaos theory but when you make one event, it can affect to your others or even other people's. Lets take an example. You go to a small donut shop and ask for a few donut. However the men in there were talking on the phone. When he saw you, he did not want you to hear his conversation so he left out of the store and asked you to wait for about 2 minutes. Right after he walked out a drunk driver drove off the road and hit him. You stood there and phew to yourself because if you were done with the donut, that would be your place. And so because of you, the man had to walk out and die.
I believe that life is nothing but a domino effect. You act on one event and the other act on theirs. And when all the results of those events collapse we have a network of cause and effects in which one new event can be the intersection of many other results. So next time if you fail your finals, do not assume that's your faith, find someone to blame, may be your parents, your roomate or the girl who you fucked so hard last night that you did not have time to study.

Short story - Superman or why do we sleep?

The year was unknown and the place was made up. Metropolis had never been so quite like tonight. People got used to the Daily Planet building replaced by the new International News Hourly which was the center of 500 world famous newspaper. So many things had changed and people did not seem to be surprised by those new splendid high tech panels and midsky railroads. They all now walked in their expensive leather suites and looked down on the street where they could easily found the news about alsmot everything in the world. Today power was no more arms, bullets, or even lazer beam that could shoot through your head. All countries were finally agreed on something, one thing, no arm. America dumped over trillions of their weapons into middle of the Pacific Ocean while Russia and China spend more than 1 million trillions Intervultra in recycling all their weapons including 3 millions nuclear heads. No more arms. People now could only kill each other by a punch or strangling someone with clothes. But those things also might seemed to be impossible because of all the micro technologies. Today was the day of news. Power transformed into another form, a very new, clean and artistic form news. The more information you had the more powerful you would be. Human's brains had been improved so much with bacteria and yeasts in order to be able to accumulate enormous load of information. Everybody now was looking down on the street to get more news, more information, except one, the only.

He was considered to be an alien since he was not from here. The earth was not his home planet but somehow he got the human shape. Everybody knew him, or at least had known him for a while. His stories became legends or myths or you could consider them as bed time stuffs that mother liked to read to their kids from the 3D holographic e-reader. That was why they forgot him so quickly and swiftly just like a storm passed through an island, strong, castatrophical but fast; millions deads behinds, but quick. He could not remember exactly when he was forgotten. It must have been started with the day that they dumped all the stupid arms into the ocean or may be it was the day that Dr Richard Hitler invented his new psychological method in controlling the humanity part of human. A chip was inserted into our brians to help us control our feelings. There was no more euphoria and neither was pain and suffering. People lived just like they should live. Now Clark was on the top of the International News Hourly building looking up to the sky, that was odd or may be that how we knew he was an alien. The feelling of being free from all his works was kind of strange somehow. He wanted, prayed for it, but when he got it...

The condition was not as he expected or may be it was too late. Lois, the love of his live, died two years before his best friend Bruce Wayne, the millionaire of Gotham city, passed his legacy to Robin and his breath to the broad peaceful sky of the number one 0% crime rate city. He missed her since then.

There were pretty much no more major criminals in Metropolis, Gotham, Star City or other big huge cities in the world. They all just vanished, swept out of the earth like bubles busted into the air. Hope, the fancy words they used for the expectation about something better was kicked out of the dictionary simply because nobody really needed to used it any more. Clark fought the bad guys, helped the good guys and trained the neutral guys. But now he's unemployed. No more crime to fight, and so no more super heroes friends to hang out. Flash passed away with lung cancer, guess he got too much pollutants during his super speed trips, Hawkman rested in peaced after a heart attack, Green Latern return to his planet after he did not seem to see any more crime fighting potential on earth. Robin left the bat cage vacant and became the owner of one of the best newspaper and passed away with lot of pleasure after a cold night on December on bed with his wife Batgirl. Green Arrow involved into a car accident after celebrating the no more crime party of Star City with 6 bottom up Jack Daniel. What did Clark have left? Himself. An undestructable man with nothing wants to destroy him. That sounds funny, almost hillarious, but it's true.

Clark looked up in the sky. He wanted to fly up there with stars, sun and moon. But it would be the same as down here, the only difference would be it would be black instead of multicolor like this down here, a highway rainbow. But that highway would not lead him to anywhere better than this. Both sides of the rainbow were now the same. Blue birds can fly and so does clark, a man in blue with a red cape. A lot of thinkings were going on, nothing really was clear, and that was where he began his new journey.

Clark decided to do some trips before he started his keep flying journey into the universe until reaching a planet that have stuffs want to destroy him. First stop, Arkham Asylum. Pretty much all his enemies were death. All the machines were destroyed, all the alien were killed, even Lex Luthor died with a relief smile on his face after a nice sleep. The only criminal he knew that were still existed on earth and had a whole Asylum with no one to guard him was not even his enemy. The Joker was the one that seemed to be immortal and the great Batman's foe. He now locked himself inside the asylum with his cards, gases and never wanted to walk out. Nobody actualy guarded him. They delivered food to him with a laser stransfer tray. He ate less and less everyday, barely enough to keep him alive to play with his cards and the three action figures of Batman, Robin and Batgirl. Sometimes people heard him laugh to hard and cold. Nobody knew why. To them, he was unharmful and untreatable. Stories had passed. The Joker now became kind of commercial figure. The asylum and him became a place of interest for all the tourists who wanted to know about the glorious past of Gotham. But the visitors were just like the food he took; may be that was why he ate less.

It was middle of the night and Clark could hear the laughing of the Joker. He opened the unlocked door to the cell and look at the Joker. He was skinner than the last time Clark met him. It must have been almost 60 years ago. Last time he was attemped to blow up the whole city with his new neutron blast gun. It gave the 65 years old Batman a hard time and also Clark since the gun was made of nothing else but Kryptonite. But now he was here, harmless, lonely. That looks familiar, Clark told him self. At last he got someone who he though he could share some thoughts. A friend, may be, after a long long time.

The Joker stop laughing. He turned over to Clark and look. His eyes were full of pain. So they did not install the chip into him. The green eyes oviouly appear on the white face were gone. Instead there were the eyes red. Not blood shot red, but the kind of red when you cry too much. He was laughing, may be it was why. They had been said that you could cry when you were happy and laugh to hard. But you do not have to be happy when you laugh. May be the Joker was in the second case.

So you finally come. The Joker say. I know why you are here. May be we should take the trip together.

Clark did not reply. He looked at the Joker and sigh. WOW, the sigh of a Supperman. Now I know why they called you supper. You sigh even when nothing is worth to sigh about. hahaha. He laughed once again. And once again Clark silience.

You know what? The Joker kept going. Sometimes I think that the Batman and I was the same. And so were you. We were all trapped into some kind of trap. We did not know why we do things we did, but we must. It was hard to explain right wasnt it? I dont know why I want to kill people, to rob the bank even I have enough money to live for the rest of my life. And you, you really do not know why you have to save those people. Some kinds of righteousness just urge you to do that. And so the un-rightousness did me. Hahaha, may be it was all a joke. A joke that we are all the jokers. What is life? What is it really? I kill, you save. Everything ends? No everything should never end. Those people, they destroyed us, and also destroyed themself. Look at them, now. Not so much attachment. Fucking Buddha was right. They are in Nirvana, but not a life. He was really the good one. He told the best joke ever. Hahahaha.

And so Clark agreed to take the Joker with him to the trip. They flew over the city. And Clark made one last stop on earth. Jonnathan was unknown to a lot of people because he was not famous. He now joined the team of normal people. But before that, he was Clark very old trainee. Clark showed him all the stuffs that he needs to be a great reporter. So may be he was the only one who could recall his trainer. Jonnathan looked at Clark and the Joker. He wanted to say something but he did not know where to start.

I know it's a hard time for you man. You never get old like me. I know how you feel.

The Joker laugh. He looks at the 5''5 old men with a moustach coverd his mouth. I don't remember you mate.

You did not have the chance. I could not recall you either, mister...

Hahhaa. The Joker laugh. His eyes once again turn red. You are funny. Very funny.

I am sorry sir. I joined them. Normal people. Everybody was equal now. Mark was right. This is really a peaceful world. No more underdog since nobody wants to be one. This is a much better world than the one we had.

Clark sighed. The Joker laughed.

You see? I was right. He was really supper. Hahahaha. Dude, btw, I need some water, I am getting dehydrated with this fucking eye balls. Hahaha. By the way. Do you know why you go to sleep mate?

And so they left. The laugh faded into the sky. Clark grapped the oxygen generator before he lift up into the sky. And so he goes.

The Joker hold tight on Clark back and closed his eyes since the speed was fast. When he had chance to open it, he saw a blue planet with a white smoke floating around its orbit. Clark landed next to a tree, and the Joker saw many funny creatures. A man on a meditation form with a black hair curly around. He also saw a punches of funny creature like a man with an eagle face, or a lady with a hand always in front of her. They called her a funny name which start with an S and the Joker could not pronounce it. They all looked really old.

A glowing figure came to Clark and the Joker. It turned into a human shape, neither male or female. Just a human shape.

So you finnally come over before your trip. The figure said.

Yeah. Clark answer.

I sent them you know. It was boring down there. I want to spice it up.

But you cant. Clark yell. There will be millions deads.

So it have been Clark. Tell me Clark, when was the last time you and this little geeky friend sleep? Clark sigh. May be that was the last thing Clark was really good at. The Joker laugh. Finally I had some friends up here. hahaha. I lost all my contacts down there mate.

I have to remind them Clark. The figure says. Remind them about us, about religion. And most of all about their sleeps. They sleep less just like you and your friend here Clark.

But... Clark stopped before he could think of anything else to say. You guys never sleep dont u?

We are different Clark. The figure says. We are boring.

I do not know about your plan mate. The Joker looked at the figure and laugh. But it gonna be good I know that from the way you talk. Hahahaha. Just let me know when we should come back there Clark. You and me.

May be another time man. Clark said. I have a long trip to take. I did something wrong and I could not face it. Are u with me?

It sounds like a fun trip mate. Hahaha. May be we can get some sleeps during that. Lets go.

And so they left; left all the good things behind including the fierceful angels flying down toward the earth with their deadly weapons. The Joker kept laughing. I did not know he sends them when the world is so perfect. Isnt it funny mate?

Yeah. And for the first time after more than 50 years, Clark felt a sleep. And so the Joker. They slept for the new day cause now they knew that tomorrow, the would be some places that need them. They slept to save energy for a new day when they can wake up and start to do something, to look up on something. They slept and left all the burning, screaming behind.

*The story was written under the inspiration of an idea from my good friend David.*