A thought

"I don't need a reason to live because I don't have any reason to die." Vinh TranAfter a sleepless night with 3 lab reports play boxxing with my head, I finally wrapped up all the shit. So I met that quote. A great quote from a young, never met friend of mine. Sometimes a great quote can make my empty stomach full, and when it is full I have to write down all the shit to make sure that my digestion is still good.A reason to live is what we all have, an illusion that we create to bind ourself to the earth, stop us from falling out of the cruel spinning world, just like gravity. Just like gravity cost us the freedom to journey around the world, our reasons cost us the freedom to live our lives. Have you ever asked yourselft that what is the reason of life of an 10 tons killer whale who does nothing but swimming, eating, fucking, and then gg? I dont know if animals have reason for their lives, because as Khong Tu said, I am not them. But I can assure one thing that they dont need a reason to live. They were born, grown and then died. What is the reason of that? U might argue that they live for the avoidance of distinction of their species. Really? How do you know that? HOw do you know that the lion has the satelite running around their heads and know that their species are going to extinct? And if you argue that, please let me know of the reason of live of a few snow leopards in the high mountain. What are their reasons?Lets me tell you this, animals do not have reason to live. They live, reproduce and then death. Just like cells inside them. That is a natural life, a natural way to live, to survive on this earth. Life and death are all but natural part of living. There is no need reason for both of them. The cells were born, growth, gone through over couple of mitosis until their telomere got too short, and then died. They die a peacful death which is call apoptosis, just like old elephants move to the specific area when they know their time is come. That how nature raise us, teach us and nurture us.But we, human, bring so much shit into this life. We brought the reasons for our lives. I have to live because my wife cant afford to raise my children. I have to live to become a doctor so that I can help people around the world. There are tetra tons of reason that people have to live their live. Those make them great, though seal their fates. We become a virus to this world, a leech which does not want to stop leaking the blood. We are parasites not to the world, or it's nutrient, but to our own fates. We thrive on our hope, crash other wishes, and leaking off the balance of the world. If Jesus had to die for the sin of human, that sin was the sin of giving their lives a reason. We build up our own hopes; it makes us great, makes us successful, but never stop us to from asking more for what we need. Reasons after reasons, needs after needs. We create own illusion to make our own nutrient for life, doing that by leaking off the balance of the world, slowly destroy it and gently kill it. HUman is just like a bacteria to the world, and when the bacteria getting so powerful, they become cancers. We all come in to the world, slowly infect it, and then sudden knock out its PC53 gene. People become cancer to the world, metastatize everwhere, building their own blood vessel with the reasons of life, and slowly burn down the earth. If i can only love one man in this world, I would love Buddah. Unlike some stupid relegion guys who call himself the son of the father of all humans, and live to help people, BUddah lived a life with no reason. Yeah, that sucks, that a life of a looser. But it all depends on what kind of looser winner that is talking. Everything with Buddah is zero. But he did not commit suicide simply because he had no reason to live. He just lived the live that nature gave him, just live it, look at it, and then put it away. No why, no how. JUst a live.When we give a reason for our lives, we not only seal its fate with a specific pathway, but a specific painful pathway. I have to live because I need to take care of my mom, therefore I need to go to medical school, therefore I have to do what ever it takes to get straigth A, cut some people open, and when I screw up, I have to do anything just to keep my status so that I can take care of my mom. Like I said, that shield makes us great, protects us, but limits us in just a narrow way of life. Just like your eyes. Your eyes can see a lot of things, but u always use it to focus on something. They call it the focus point. Everything out side that focus point is blurry, dark, and sometimes, invisible. LIke an old saying that if u step one step back, you see a greater bigger sky. Limiting our ways of life is stopping us from enjoy the real happiness of our lives. Yes, you are rich, you have hot girls sleep with you every night. But what do u get after those climax? Nothing. Just an empty hollow feeling inside you. Yes you are happy with your new Lamborghini, but how long can that happiness last? I dont know, may be days. I really dont know how it will feel if u can live like buddah, because I mysefl still limiting my own life to the reasons. I really cant tell how to get rid of al the reasons, and just live a life with life itself. But I hope, I will find it soon...