"I am a dog chasing cars. I wouldn’t know what to do with one if I caught it. You know, I just… do things The mob has plans, the cops have plans, Gordon’s got plans. You know, they’re schemers. Schemers trying to control their little worlds. I’m not a schemer. I try to show the schemers how pathetic their attempts to control things really are."
Sometimes you can find a lesson of life from a psychopath. Why?
Well, we often look at psychopaths as crazy people, but when did we ever try to stop and ask ourselves, why are they so crazy? Suddenly remember about a character from a book who is wise and strong, but after his wife got raped, his newborn son got kill and his entire family was massacred, he just went crazy. That's not a true story but it should remind us, sometimes psychopaths are people who know life better than us because they experience the tragic of life. Often there's a saying, "what can not kill you makes you stronger." That's quite true isnt it?
So here we are, living our lives just like a dog chasing cars. We try to get a big job, big salary, with trophy partner, fancy house, high class car, expensive suits, yet never know what we going to do after we have those. And so we have plans for how to get a job, how to flirt the girls, how to finance our houses and blah blah blah blah blah. I don't believe that there is a God somewhere decided what we have and will have. I don't believe that our lives are already written in some kind of destiny book. I believe that if we can just live our life the way we want, we'll be happy.
Yeah, we all try to control our little world to fit it into our need yet never stop to consider how pathetic that action was. Why is it pathetic? Because there are things we can not control, you can not achieve no matter how much effort you put into. Yeah, we try to control our world so that it fits what we need, but never ask the question what do we really need. Suddenly remember a song.
"This is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And you take that love you made
Stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Bumping someone else's blood
...You hope you dont get hurt
Even if it does, you just do it all again."
As a "schemers" we the people spend too much time to think and make plans trying to control our life the way we want it with the thought that that's the life we want and so unconsciously lied to ourselves that's what we really need.
You know what? If you think too much, you might over think your problems and ruin everything. It is ok to fail. It is ok to make mistakes. It is ok to give up. There are certain things in life you just can't get. There are certain things in life you just can't control. So why do we have to control it? Why can we just live our everyday lives as if it is the last day, because, hey trust me, it could be the last day. Let live our life to the fullest and never look back. Why? Cause you can not change the past, but remember, you can make up for it. Suddenly remember a poem.
"Người ra đi đầu không ngoảnh lại,
Sau lưng thềm nắng lá vơi đầy."
"You are gone without looking back
The fallen leaves have covered the stair behind"
A friend asked me (we were talking about why I do not want a girlfriend):"What happens when you get old, like 40 50?"
Dont know what to answer, cause I never know what I will be at 40 50, and in my mind I never think that I have to have a girl or even a guy with me to feel fully alive. I don't try to cope into a "normal" life. I don't try to stand in the "normal" people line. I just want to live my life to the fullest and if I cant have what I want, I cant have what I want. No big deal.
So come on guys, let just do things shall we?
